*depressed ....

been feeling really depressed lately ............
i really wanna leave ..........................................
how i wish i sleep tonite n never wake up anymore ..
dun ever wanna wake up to this world ..

~elle~

I really hate the feeling.. The fact that i'm still stuck here , in this world

the fact that i still wake up to this cruel world ..i hate this

Masters .. masters ..

Have been thinking a lot recently ..
Should i continue Master with LJMU for the sake of going back to Liverpool ..
But will things be the same ? i doubt so ..
I've been wanting to spend my life in a foreign country .. juz like liverpool ..
for as long as i can remember ..
will it b stupid for giving up what i have now to start all over again ..

~ elle ~

Grey days ahead ...

Days have been a little hectic for me recently ..

All our effort were wasted due to jealousy ..

How can ppl be so cruel as to kill all the fishes in our pond ..

Why did God gave us such a challenge ..

~elle~

She is sooo much better now ..

My grandmother is now so so so much better ..
At least she request my dad to 'tapau' rice as lunch ..
previously, she doesnt even wanna eat ..
not even a small spoonful of rice ..
Glad that mom was home to take care of her ..
She is now so much better after taking the chinese medicine ..
But kinda worried that after mom n i left, who will b taking care of her ..

~ elle~

White flag ...

i really wanna give up on my current relationship ..
its been so long and its so tiring to stay in this relationship
things have gone to the extent that i'm fed up with him ..
with everything that he does and did ..

praying hard for God to show me to way ...
is this how its meant to be ?

~ in confusion ~
~elle~